New Year

I know it is not January, but even though January 1^st changes the calendar year, my new year is my birthday. Which some of you might not know was in this month.

I am starting a new rotation around the sun. Living through 24 has made me wiser. I am paying closer attention to my habits. I am improving my positive vocabulary. I am finding more value in all of life’s lessons. I allow myself to react with a desire to get to the root cause of why I am reacting. I am kinder to myself. I give myself a lot more positive pep talks. I am living a life of abundance.

I am truly grateful. I didn’t imagine my life now at 20. I used to hate when people asked me “where do you see yourself in 5 years?” because I never knew the answer. But I’m here now; 5 years later from being 20. I’m doing adulting things. Such as, owning a home and having a dog! Two things that I thought I’d have to be much older to have. I will definitely be expanding on my two new life adventures in future blogs, but this one is just the big announcement.

I have been listening to a Mindvalley series called Unlimited Abundance. One of the podcasts was about Clearing the Fear of Change. I used to be terrified of change. I was told I needed to love change. I thought change was bad or good, but mostly bad. The cool thing that I picked up from the podcast is that we are constantly changing.

Scientifically, our bodies are changing. Creating new skin, pumping red blood cells, and growing hair. I’m no scientist so I cannot go into the depths of the human body complexity, but I do find it fascinating. If our bodies are constantly changing, then it is foolish to resist change because we are beings of change.

I’m seeing change as a power-up. Every day, I get a little smarter. I grow into being the best version of myself. I am enjoying that I am never stuck. Change is inevitable. It is the only consistency in life. Learning to flow with change, be open to it, and ride the change is all a part of living life to the fullest.

Thank you to all my readers for continuing to read my life’s journey. I post these blogs sometimes forgetting that they’re out there for anyone to read, and it is cool to be able to connect with people over topics I’ve covered. So thank you! 

Abundant Love

I feel that there is so much weight on the word love. The English language provides many synonyms for the word love, but other languages are limited to one word or phrase. It is hard for non-English speakers to comprehend the many words we use to describe love. But for whatever reason, we still hold love to a higher standard of feeling than the other words we could use. It is weird and kind of uncommon to say “I love you” to someone you just met or are only friends with. If you LOVE something, it is implied that it is the best and ONLY thing for you.

I have recently been digesting on the word abundance. What if there is an abundance of love? Loving so many things would not be seen as uncommon, but a higher frequency of living. I feel that by acting like love is limited, we think there are not enough good things for everyone and everything.

Think about it...if there is an abundance of love, why is there so much hate and fear? If there is an abundance of good for all people, why is their violence? If there is abundant wealth, why isn’t everyone wealthy? A world relying on the lie of scarcity puts people’s lives in danger. A world of abundance brings peace.  

My dive through the ocean of love has got me breathless. I am surrounded by 'couple love' but remain single. At first, it felt like I was lacking because I do not have a single special someone to love. Truth is, I have said, “I love you” to a lot of people. I would throw out the word “love” like it had no importance. So, I started to question that maybe all those things were not love and that I may not have encountered love yet. I started to feel like love was limited or quantified. If I told person A that I love them then I couldn’t possibly love person B.  

Thinking about love being abundant, I realize I didn’t run out of love. The 100% truth is that I have loved AND still love so many people. There is enough love to surpass all time and space. I’ve only gone deeper into my capacity to love. Even when my loved ones find love, I get to love more people. Love is expandable.

Love does not have to be limited to a human trait. I can love riding my bike AND the taste of cappuccino because the simple things bring abundant joy. Love is as vast as the oceans and continues to expand like the universe. Just because we are only given one word to describe the good things that come with love, does not diminish the value of love you have for someone or something.

I can float on the top of love. I can doggy paddle on the surface. I can swim in the shallows. Or I can dive deep into its abundance and know there is enough love for me. I don’t have to be excluded from a club because I’m showing up as one. There is enough love in me to be loved.

I feel like it is always important to bring up self-love. I’ve noticed in other people too that we are the meanest and hardest on ourselves. Love is both an outward and inward emotion of choice. There is enough love for you and me to love ourselves, others, and things abundantly.