Creating a blog was something I started a while ago. I can’t even tell you exactly what it was that inspired me to start blogging. I’m sure it was some kind of Disney show or movie. I was easily inspired by things. I would passionately take up a hobby only to eventually stop doing it regularly.
Sometimes I panic when people ask me what my hobbies are. There are lots of things I am passionate about, but that doesn’t mean I make the time to do them all. A dear friend of mine named Eileen said to me, “You can do things well, you just can’t do all things well at once.” Sometimes I feel like if I’m not doing everything right in every area of my life then the bad cancels out any of the good.
I got to wrestle with my thoughts this weekend. Everything that has happened over the past few weeks has brought me back to my choice. As much as I’d like to blame circumstances for my problems, I am always brought back to the power of my choice. There will always be things that happen out of my control. How I respond to those events is my choice. I do not always like to believe this, and I definitely don’t always live it out perfectly, but I’m working towards progress, not perfection.
My timeline is past due for some of the declarations of goals I made for myself. They were personal goals and professional goals. I find that when I declare my goals and don’t accomplish them, my reaction toward myself is self-destructive. I go into beating myself up mode, throw in my towel, and declare my surrender. I quit because things stopped being easy.
I worked with my coach, Patty, who reminded me of the tools I have from the Klemmer seminars I’ve attended. The work I do with Patty is so important to me. She asks me questions to challenge and disrupt my way of thinking. I get to choose. How am I thinking about my results? I did not accomplish my goals. What did I learn? What do I know about myself that I didn’t know before this experience?
I believe that God has a calling on my life that gives me hope and a future. He told me in Jeremiah 29:11. I believe that God works all things out for good. Romans 8:28 I know that when I need wisdom, I should ask God who gives me generously. James 1:5
At the end of the day, I have to remind myself daily that my thoughts control my feelings, and my feelings control my actions. I get to choose my thoughts.
How I move on from this point is up to me. The choice is mine. I can either give up on what I believe God is calling me to or I can celebrate the steps I'm taking to get me there. Sometimes the door closes on things I thought were part of the plan. There is a win when the door closes just as much as there is a win when a door opens. The choice is mine how I want to see it.
Thank you to all who read. Love you! Connect soon <3
