In my life, I’ve noticed a pattern of something “bad” happening followed by a series of events that end up being for my good. This blog is just a few.
I bought a house in the city in 2020. That house had its own series of unfortunate events that I’m not getting into. For the most part, buying that house has felt bad for me. This year, I sold it for a profit. Super good.
I got a job last year that I was hoping would be my solid job that I’d have for years of my life… I absolutely hated it. My body became so stressed. Eventually my pain got so bad, my jaw locked up while I was at work. It definitely caused a stir, and I felt so embarrassed. My mental health started depleting. I already struggle and have struggled with maintaining a healthy balance of my emotions throughout my life. This job brought me to a new extreme of suicidal ideation. I couldn’t imagine my future doing this work day in and day out. It was a complete waste of 40 hours a week. I couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me. People around me in other departments loved their job. I wanted so badly to just be “normal”. Since I knew I couldn’t be, I thought so much about ending it all.
I am so thankful for the friends I made at the company. My angel of reason (a friend in marketing) told me to quit. I didn’t think that could be a real option, but it totally was. I sold my house. I’ve saved money from every job I’ve been at. Money wasn’t a problem. I’ve been blessed to live with my parents. There was no reason for me to stay. My life is worth more than the work I do at a stupid job.
So I quit.
A bad thing- my jaw pain- led me to the chiropractor. My chiropractor listened to me share about the stress I was under. He recommended Rezenity Health which has a holistic approach to mental health and physical pain. I found the most incredible somatic therapist there. She has her own practice now, but the timing of everything was perfect. Something bad led to something good.
Thanks to quitting my job, I got to visit my dear friend in Montana for a week, I got to visit my best friend for her birthday, and I got to attend my best friend’s brother’s wedding! I wouldn’t have been able to do those things if I was still working with the little amount of PTO I got. The best part about going to my bestie’s brother’s wedding was being able to serve their Aunt.
Their Aunt has a disability that has her in a wheelchair. She is way more independent than she gives herself credit for, but I had the honor of being her caretaker for the weekend. I even picked her up on my way down to North Carolina. We had not met until this point. Most people wouldn’t pick up a stranger for a 5 hr car ride, but I’d do anything for my bestie’s family. I am so glad I did. I got to do what I do best and love on the Aunt like she was my own. We had a lot of fun together.
I’m back home from my trip to NC. I told myself I would consider what I am doing for work once I got back. I know I don’t want to get behind a desk and work 40 hrs a week. I might have a fancy degree, but I would much rather use my brain doing anything else.
Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” In all the things in my life good or bad, I cling to the promise that God can and will use it for his good. I will continue to have faith. I know God has a plan and purpose for my life, otherwise I would not be here.
I released an EP (mini album) on Halloween called Whimsically Medieval. It takes a total of 19 mins to listen to all the songs. I’d really appreciate if you do. Even those songs are a testament of something “bad” turning into something good. I’ve written beautiful songs from places of pain. It’s all part of the human experience.
If my blog post stirred up any emotions, feel free to reach out. You can email me at christalilycoaching@gmail.com. You can also follow me on social media. I have a life coaching certification, and I love to be of service to others.
Master of self, servant to all -Christa Lily
