The Next Step

I’ve been doing a lot lately. I took on the role of a full-time substitute teacher for third grade. It has stretched me and grown me in ways I didn’t know possible.

I’ve worn many hats in my life. It’s fun for me to take on new challenges and navigate through them. This one has felt different. I got to fall in love with 21 souls. Sure, I’ve made friends with coworkers, but adult relationships are different. 

Watching these kids grow and develop has been inspiring. Gaining their trust and getting to know their unique personalities has been heart-melting. Being a part of their lives has been amazing. I’m so thankful I said yes to that call. 

Now, that chapter is done. Everyone wants to know "what’s next?"... I hate that question. As someone who goes with the flow, planning what’s next has never been my strong suit. Some of the best things in my life have not been planned, at least not by me.

My faith in God has grown stronger as He has brought me through many trials. He continues to provide what I need. I see His handiwork in so many details of my life. I would be nothing without my faith. 

I graduated from therapy! My amazing therapist, Melissa Parkhurst at Inner Sana, has been instrumental in helping me navigate my emotions. She helped me create a safe space within myself. At our last appointment, I told her I felt like I was looking down into an abyss. I have my whole life ahead of me, and it just feels like a big empty hole. She reminded me of the concept that when you take the next step, the path will appear. 

Here are some of my next steps: 

I am leaning into my music. I am recording a new album for this year called Bipolar Love. It is a combination of my love songs and anti-love songs. Bringing my songs to life with Barn Burner studio has been incredible. I have a lot of ideas for new music videos for my professionally recorded songs. 

Another step is to fall deeper in love with Jonathan and create a new life with him. We’ve known each other for 12 weeks and have been dating for 2 months, but the timing is irrelevant. When both people are on the same page, have the same goals, and share the same heart posture, you just know. I’ve never known love like this before. I’m excited for the opportunity to explore forever with Jonathan. No, we are not engaged, but I trust that’s in my future.

Thank you for reading my update! As always, feel free to reach out and connect with me. Thankful for your love and support! Blessings!