The Painting Isn’t Finished

Seven blog posts down, I wrote a post called This is Me. It has been my most read blog post amazingly. As I read over it, my life has changed a little since then. I felt a little guilty that I made such a strong statement about myself and not follow through with it. There is a saying that goes, “We make plans and God laughs” that seems very fitting for my life.

           

The thing that has changed since that blog post is my current career path. I mentioned in the blog post that “I am a caregiver for the elderly with Touching Hearts at Home. I have a passion to learn and observe human behavior which leads me to analyze my behavior as well as others around me.” During this time in my life, I was planning on switching my study from accounting into psychology. I like helping people who feel broken like I do/did. I really thought doing something drastically different than my current occupation would make me happier. Turns out, enough discouragement from external forces can cause a change of mind.

I am currently a Financial Analyst for a not-for-profit organization that helps other not-for-profits work with mental health patients, homeless people, people who struggle with addiction and so much more. Indirectly, I am helping people. Feels like I am a small cog in a huge machine, but I am grateful for the job I have.

I decided in January 2019 to get my MBA. Getting my masters is something neither of my parents did and only one of my four siblings has done. Instead of focusing in Accounting, I am just getting my degree in General Management. I’ll be graduating with my masters in December 2019. My goal for 2019 is almost accomplished.

During the tax season, I have been offered a second job doing taxes. Turns out, my mother’s interest in taxes has spilled over into me (she’s a CPA tax accountant). Both my parents are accountants if you didn’t know. Surprisingly, neither of them ever tried to force being an accountant on me. I actually chose that path on my own. I have worked two tax seasons before and have really enjoyed it.  

I am still really excited about what my future will bring. I plan to accrue more PTO and take more trips across the world and states. I am picking up old hobbies that I felt like I didn’t have time for (which includes blogging). I am optimistic. I am also thinking about becoming an Enrolled Agent which is a smaller licensing than becoming a CPA. I am slightly afraid of becoming bored when I have too much free time.  

So now that I have updated you on my current status of life, the reason my blog is titled the painting isn’t finished is because… I like making bold strokes. I sometimes paint with black lines defining an area of the painting that is my life. I like to make decisions that I think are going to be permanent and prominent. Thankfully, the painting of my life is not finished. Lines that I thought would be defining moments have become small details to a greater theme. I am open to change. I am open to using more colors and techniques on my painting. I am happy to be me even when it feels like the painting is really ugly.  

“Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.” -George Bernard Shaw. As long as there is breath in my lungs, my painting isn’t finished. What a masterpiece it has the potential to be.

Thank you for reading my blog posts! I super appreciate the feedback. Connecting with people even in a small way through this blog makes my heart super happy. So, thank you all that have reached out to me. I hope more people comment. Even if you disagree with me. Let’s have a safe place to discuss our difference. All are welcome.